Perfect Day..

Most days lately I feel a huge lack of motivation. I wouldn't say that I am depressed just feeling that I have a lack of direction. I know it's already five months since I quit In N Out but I still feel almost a void. Not that I miss working there, but I just don't know what to do with all this TIME!!!! For the first year of our marriage I worked 50-60 hours a week, cooked breakfast, lunch and dinner, did the laundry, went grocery shopping, cleaned the house, hung out with friends and still managed to find time to sleep. Now I work 20 hours a week and I don't know how to get anything done. Haha, it's funny how that can happen. I only know how to live under immense stress. It sometimes feels like I can only function properly if there are a million things to get done an no time to do it. When there is an endless amount of time available I panic... I sit on the couch while everyone is at work and just stare into space. I know it sounds ridiculous but its the truth. There are not really any dishes to do, only one load of laundry that could get done, the house is pretty much picked up... now what? I could cook something... but food is expensive here. So what to do.... this is the story of most of my days.

Yesterday was a perfect day though. We slept in and had a lazy little morning and then we jumped in the car with our buddy Ryan (he's the bar manager at Jordan's work.) He took us up to the Kilauea Fish Market. Jordan and I have only been out to eat four other times in the past 5 months so this was pretty exciting! We were told we had to get the Seared Ahi Wrap. It was seriously incredible. We ate on this little outdoor patio at the market. Then we headed down to a beach that we had never been to before. Jordan and I played in the little river that ran into the ocean. It was pretty fun. I love that we can be kids together and find joy in small things. We would each find a stick or a seed, run into to the river at the top and drop our sticks on the count of three. Then we would run up the bank and follow them down to the ocean to see who's stick would win! I won four times and we tied twice! Yes we did this that many times. Then Ryan came over and him and Jordan layed on their backs to float and raced down the river. It was simple and so much fun. It felt so good to get out of the house! We came home and cuddled on the couch as we watch Cars 2! I like those days. Simple and innocent fun!